Go Go Power Rangers.....

....That is what I was planning on saying at the exact moment my water broke. Anyhoo....

This will be the last "pregnancy post" I make. After a week of Preeclampsia testing, my OB said today at my 37 week appointment that all my numbers are in the range of a "Mild Preeclampsia" diagnosis and that inducing at 37 weeks is usually prescribed. Which happens to be today, Wednesday, as it is now 2:26 a.m. So at some point after 5:00 a.m. I should be getting a call from the hospital letting me know at what time I need to come in.

The baby is still doing great though. In fact, much to Dr. Bray's surprise, I was already dilated 3cm and the baby's head is right in the pelvis (is that right?). He is such an amazing doctor and he truly cares about his patients. I know this because most inductions take place on the OB's "on call" day, but Dr.Bray is not on-call until next week and he said that out of safety for me and the baby, it would not be best to try to wait until that day.

I really should be sleeping and I have not gotten much sleep in the past 2 days so I thought that I would be passed out by now :( I can't sleep though, my nerves have got the better of me. Now that I know that I will be delivering this baby today/tomorrow it is seriously like waiting for Christmas. For the record, I may be 25, but I still get those childhood feelings that make it impossible to wait or sleep the day before Christmas. LOL! Hopefully I will get some rest before the "hard contractions" kick in!

I can't believe how quickly this whole pregnancy has passed! My mind is a whirl thinking back over the past months. All the little milestones seem like yesterday, yet they really are "a long time ago in the pregnancy". There has been no slow down. Even today, it seems like just a minute ago it was 11:10am as we were sitting in the doctor's office and now it is almost 3:00 a.m.

I have always wanted to be a mom. I know it is the calling that God has on my life and I have waited so long, holding on to God's promise that despite what the doctors say "I will have babies".  So why am I so scared to the verge of tears at this moment? Is is the unknown of the delivery process that will be taking place? Is it my heart, mind, and soul getting ready to release all fear to be replaced by the absolute love that comes at the moment they place this little blessing from the Lord into your arms? Is it in the hope that I am in the exact place God needs me to be to be the mother I am suppose to be to this baby and still be the wife I need to be to my husband? I really don't know for sure, but what I do know is that God loves me and he has a plan for our little family. When the world says no way and that there is no way we can make it, God will be there saying "Trust in me for you have already overcome the world". This is the encouragement that I hold onto as I prepare to enter a new chapter in my life. Maybe that's it. There were similar feelings when Larry and I started a new chapter to our life 6 years ago when we started dating, and then again on October 28, 2006 when we got married. There is definitely some sadness to ending the chapter of "Just the two of us" and beginning "Baby makes three". But again, that sadness will be swept away to oblivion the moment this baby is placed into our arms.

Over the past few days I have been thinking about the little man that I want to raise up for the kingdom of the Lord. This is what I have come to pray:

A heart like King David, who was willing to become undignified for his father in heaven.
A love like Jonathan, who was willing to stand up for the "brother" that he loved, no matter the cost.

The strength of Noah, who was willing to withstand ridicule for following direction of the Lord.
The courage of Moses, to stand before mighty pharaoh and demand that he let the Lord's people go.

There are so many men in the Bible whose qualities I want for Brody to have. Then I am reminded, that the amazing qualities I would choose for my son, compare nothing to the qualities that God has already instilled inside this babies heart. So I change my focus and pray:

Lord, always shape and mold me to be the mother that I need to be to raise this child in your light. I pray that he would see love, compassion, kindness, forgiveness, and gentleness in me. And when I do wrong, allow pride to fall away and for me to humble myself before you in forgiveness, to teach him that when we make mistakes we have a father in heaven who loves us even when we fail. I pray that my actions would never cause this child to want to turn away from his first love. Instill in me a clean and pure heart, so that I may raise a child who has a clean and pure heart. Help me to remember that while he may be my son on earth, he was yours first and always will be. Amen.

Well, I am starting to get a little sleepy. Apparently late night blogging is just what I needed to help me get sleepy.

I want to say thank you to everyone who has kept us in your prayers. I know that Lord has heard them all. I am blessed to have such wonderful family and friends.

God Bless you all, and I can't wait to introduce the new member of the family the next time I am able to get on here.

Love,
Kristina- soon to be mommy to a little boy sent from heaven!