Getting Large & No Longer In Charge

Wow, I thought that time slows way down the closer you get to the due date? Maybe I will not be thinking the time is going by that fast when I am a day or even a week past August 11. I am hoping I do not go a week past the due date. It has been pretty tough to move around and there is so much pain and stretching going on in the pelvic/lower abdominal region, seriously it feels like my hips are going to burst.

We had a pretty eventful Father's Day...in the hospital. After 4 days of "violent vomiting" (there is no other way to describe it), I had no energy whatsoever and I was so uncomfortable. After talking to the OB it was decided that I should probably get checked out. I was terribly dehydrated and had to get 2 IV saline solutions. Because I had been experiencing the heartburn/nausea/vomiting cycle over the course of the pregnancy, the doctor started treatment for GERD (gastroesophogeal reflux disease). Because the baby was doing great they decided I could finish the treatments at home and released me as soon as I could prove that I could keep some food down. Thankfully the medications have been working, because my throat was so sore and irritated from all the acid. It is so weird how your body can go through so much, yet, the baby is 100% A-Okay and not affected and it doesn't help when he is practicing his ninjitsu skills while I am so nauseous.

On the upside of doctors visits this past week, my Blood Pressure was down to a safe number and I am hopeful that it stays that way. I do not want to be induced and having a high BP will only increase that chance. I was also a little surprised to learn that I have finally gained some weight. 6 pounds to be exact. How I gained that much in a week with not being able to keep anything down was actually quite shocking to me. However, according to most pregnancy charts the average weight of a baby at this stage in pregnancy is about 4.5 pounds. I noticed today just how far my belly is starting to stick out. And I feel so limited in what I can do and for how long I can do it. I definitely do not feel like I am in charge of anything anymore.

You know, if I had to go through it all again, I would for him. Because at the end of the night when I am laying quietly and I see and feel his movements my heart fills up with so much love and I have to thank the Lord for the miracle, blessing, and desire of my heart.

So much is changing and all I can do is give everything up to God. I don't know how much change is coming, but I do know it is on its way. I don't know how I will be adapting to the changes, but I know that I have the Lord guiding me and walking beside me. I was thinking about Eve and how when she went through this. Physically she was all alone. She was the first. There was no "What To Expect" book to help guide her through her pregnancy. She didn't have a mom or friend to turn to. All she had was the Lord. I can imagine her sitting there talking to God about everything. And I believe that the Lord gave her so much peace, a gift to the woman who went through it first. And while technology may make it easier and considerably safer to be pregnant, pregnancy itself is still the same as it was the very first time it happened. I do wonder what her thought was the first time she seen her belly squirming around, because it was amazing yet creepy the first time I seen it happen. Then again, all I could think about was the movie "Alien".

Hmmm... Definitely got off subject this time around. Anyhoo- other than that things have been good here. I definitely can't wait to have Brody in my arms, yet, I want to enjoy every last minute of him being just mine (and God's).

Love,

Kristina